This Christmas season has a whole different feeling than any other. I have tried to proceed with life as usual, but the possibility that I might have cancer is weighing heavy on my mind. I can't help but think of my mom and how cancer cut her life short. I miss her so much. I am trying to be strong. I don't want to fall apart in front of my husband or children. I've cried. I've prayed. I try to stop myself from thinking the worst. I try to take one day at a time-- one step at a time, while doing all the things that are part of life.
Saturday-12/22, we went to our extended family Christmas in Santa Cruz at my sister & brother-in-law's, Bev and Jim's, house. We had a lovely dinner of prime rib and all the things that go with a Christmas dinner. Scott has traveled so much for so long that he wanted to stay home, so it was just me and the boys.
Sunday-12/23, I helped with Christmas on Destiny.
Yesterday-12/24, I finished up my Christmas shopping, bought groceries for Christmas dinner, and then barely made it in time for Christmas Eve service, meeting the family at church.
Today is Christmas! We opened presents this morning, made waffles in the new waffle maker and Scott started smoking the turkey that we ate for Christmas dinner this evening.
I am trying to think positively and depend on God. God is my strength. I know He will get me through this.
Christmas 2012 Santa Cruz
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